Wednesday 4 November 2015

Entah Apa Rasa...



Invite through facebook Maker Fair this coming 14 nov..... he click interested.... so i just send him a big smile.... he send a big laugh..... ermmmmm nk fikir apa???

I just decided to stay still and silences again... its being 5 days since he came back from ausssieee....
tak rindu aku ker? souvenier? aku nk ajak dia jumpa ka coz i have something for him...... souvenier from cameron highland jer..... dah 2 bulan simpan.....  hahahahahah aku berharap he call or ajak dating rupanya.....

best word for me S.T.U.P.I.D girl..... buat M.A.L.U jjjjjaaahahahhahahhha

Souvenier dari korea pun dah bertimbun2 dpt.... hehhehehhehhe bestnya dapat hadiah oversea....

tak baik berharap cemtu Is.......... agaknya dia konfius dgn my reaction before.... after he came back from China...... okay, my mistake!!! admit it and already say sorry tp takkan la sampai berbulan2 aku terus dihukum????? oh My Heart sabar sabar sabar......

Aku takmau rasa apa2.....tak pasti nak buat apa dah.....stop terhegeh2.....stop being perigi cari timba....kembali kepada Allah s.w.t.. terima apa yg ada....ingat Allah ingat Allah sesungguhnya hati ini milikNya....... tawakal n let him go......
Be still & silencessssss....... mampukah aku bertahan?



Friday 30 October 2015

Don't know how to Act.....


seriously aku dah tak tau macamana nk berkawan dgn 'boyfriend'....

WhatsApp Last seen at 10pm ........ today until about 6pm baru nampak seen ..... fuhhh sangat risau ...
just tegur dah sampai ke belum.... & alhamdulillah leganya dia balas dah sampai KLIA2...
tapi aku pulak yg buat ayat pelik... ermmmmm 'silly girl'.....

RILek rilek rilex.... tak sampai sehari kan awak tak sembang ..... baru jer semlm dia hantar gambar with kanggarooo hahhahahahha

agaknya aku cuba nak cover my kerinduan, kerisauan, perasaan nak tahu what's up with him...just all about him.... nak sembang tapi salah ayat la pulak..... :(

selalu teringat yg aku ni hanya syok sendiri.... walaupun dia balas setiap wassap aku....
tapi selalu lambat dan kadang2 cakap sikit ja..... sampaii rasa aku sembang sorang2 :(
aku ker yg tamakkan perhatian dia?? nak dia caring??
pastu teringat lak yg dia kata " dia tak mau mengorat & just be himself, simple,senang mudah etc".....
abis tu yg sebulan perkenalan awal tu... apa yg dia buat???? tiap2 hari wassap, at least seminggu sekali call, tanya khabar aku.... siap buat 'prank'...... so sweet :)

sangat sedih dengan perubahan dia.... dah almost 7 month..... semua tu dah semakin kurang....
almost 2 month not 'officially dating', not calling.... rindu sangat nk dengar suara dia.....
wassap dah jadi seminggu sekali......

cuma last terserempak 'hari arafah'.... dan selisih kereta last week .....
tu pun lepas aku berdoa "semoga Allah berikan aku kekuatan utk melupakan dia dan kalau ada jodoh nanti kita terjumpa lah "...... jodoh ka situasi begini?

the positive side of me :
1) he is super busy.... sbb tu tak banyak cakap dah
2) he send his picture cause he 'teringatkan' me....

Ya Allah.... aku tak paham apa yg berlaku....layakkah aku utk dia....
Ya Allah.... Engkau tabahkan lah hatiku......
Aku mencari seorang suami yg menjadi imam....yg mampu membimbing,menjaga dan melindungi aku.... make me feel safe and always happy........




Wednesday 15 April 2015

Ready...... Start..... Action !!!!

Assalamualaikum......
Salam Sayang Semua....

Jadi Magnet yg positif.....  "love is everywhere"

Jadikan Jodoh yg kita jumpa ini sebagai ladang impian kita untuk bertemu Allah s.w.t.......
:) :) :) Appreciate it :) :) :)

Lately.... i been tested again..... rasa macam dia tak berminat tapi its okay...
I'll just keep keep in touch.......