Is it my responsibility?

" Surat apa ni?"
" Panggilan interview dari govern..."
" Bila masa minta post ni?"
" Entah"

Alamak...kenapa la tempat interview kat situ....dah tak ada tempat lain ka?

What to do what to do.....

Semalaman rasa hati ni tak tenang. Patutla ada call dari pejabat govern. aku tak sedar lansung ada call. Bila tengok nombor...cam kenal jer sebabnya handphone aku rosak...so ada nombor yang currently used only. Kalau aku nak call semula pun, nak cakap ? Dengan siapa? Tetiba rasa cam Eh perasannya! Siapa yg call dia and for what reason. Aku pun tak boleh nak recall@agak siapa yang akan call.....mmmmm so I just stood still.

So I just cooldown (tapi muka dah habis berkerut-kerut) :( . After prayer, i just wish that I could find a solution. 

Mesti korang tertanya-tanya fikir apa yang teruk sangat ni? Apa hal pulak yang rasa bertanggungjawab sangat tu?

Sebenarnya, that interview place is my former office. I just resign oleh sebab-sebab yang tidak boleh diberitahu lagi (rasa fobia sikit kot). I'm sure that you guys knew how it feels when you got to resign after working so hard and you feel like everyone already 'camcing' (get together) with you. Bila kita dah tinggalkan sesuatu tempat kerja tu (tak kiralah atas alasan baik ke buruk), dah lama tak keep in touch because busy with new work and think of why bother about others. They also have their own life. If you agreed, the feeling is just like you want to know about your ex-girl/boyfriend life.

Back to our story.... I just feel like i'm responsible in helping to get the job. Just because I knew some people there that could help...

Why after 2 years....i have to face them again. And what's worst, I didn't change at all, still single and  don't have any achievement.... huh what a pathetic!!!